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DUE SOUTH.......................................
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Sorry I haven’t kept in touch.
[bones14711]
2008-10-08 19:11:45

DUE SOUTH.......................................

You'll be happy to hear that some of your gaggles of geese have arrived safely in Georgia on their way to points farther South in a couple of weeks.

I saw previews for that chihuahua movie and it looked really funny. Hope you had a nice visit with your mum.

[Crazymixedup]
2008-10-06 00:11:05

DUE SOUTH....................................... Yeah, Thank you.
XDarcy

[dardy]
2008-09-30 14:23:42

DUE SOUTH.......................................

I'm watching for the geese, sweet Alice. They haven't arrived here yet, but any day....

I think about you being so isolated out in the country in that big old house and I'm not sure that's a good thing.  Solitude is good to a degree, but what if you had an emergency? Or just wanted to get out and have a Starbucks?  I think setting a goal to get your license is a great idea!

Loved the photo, as always.  I'm sending you warm wishes and good thoughts, my dear friend.  Love, Gina

[Spirit Song]
2008-09-29 16:20:28

DUE SOUTH....................................... Beverley Hills Chihuahua looks like a fun movie. I am going to wait and see it when it comes out on DVD though.

Love and Light,
Mucha

[Muchado]
2008-09-28 03:09:46

DUE SOUTH.......................................

"What is your book about?" A human and an elf fall in love and have children. They go through a lot of prejudice together but pull through. Their children grow up and have a lot of adventures.

"Are you writing another?" Yes. I started it last November and I have one chapter left. I'll probably wait until after the first one is fully published before trying to publish this new one.

Spiritsfire

[spiritsfire]
2008-09-27 22:15:51

DUE SOUTH.......................................

My Dear Sister Alice,

  YAY for seeing that we all fit in someplace...a lesson that we all need to be reminded of from time to time!Smile

  YAY for your mom coming for a visit! I will be praying Blessing over that visit!Smile

   Thank YOU soooooo much for your support in my recovery...It means the world to me because I know that you truly know how very hard it is for me.

   I'm so grateful that you emailed me- reading it and writing back truly gives me something to look forward to...I want some peace and quiet to do it...I want to savor it and have the time to reflect and write properly back!

  I'm so grateful that you are back with us.

  I will think about the messenger thing- truth is I NEVER turn mine on.Neutral

  Perhaps we could talk by phone again sometime?

   Know that my prayers, Love and thoughts are with you!,

                      Jewel

[Jeweliet]
2008-09-27 11:45:20

DUE SOUTH.......................................

So we have an established connection now

Keep reading the Goodies

Greetings from India.....Very Happy

[sharda]
2008-09-27 10:48:51

DUE SOUTH....................................... your pic here is beautiful. [anglekisses123] 2008-09-27 10:06:05

TURNING A NEW LEAF....................

Thanx hun. Gonna go check out that video in a minute. Red has a band!?!? I never knew that! Good luck getting your liscence! I know you can do it! Take care, love you lots *hugs* xxxxxxxxxxxxx

[SkAbUs SuNsHiNe 2]
2008-09-26 16:49:32

TURNING A NEW LEAF....................   I say get the license Alice, and just drive on those country roads if you don't like getting onto the busy ones....nothing wrong with that. Go for it! I enjoyed the video, and they sound very good. They've been playing for awhile now, so I'm not surprised to hear how professional they sound.
  Hope you have a nice weekend, and you keep warm up there in the far north countryWink. You'll be writing of snow before long now.........and you've probably already seen frost? Not here yet, but the colors are coming out in full beauty now........and I will be enjoying them while fishing the river. Take care, and see ya later, Michael.[commonsensechristian]
2008-09-26 13:22:30

TURNING A NEW LEAF.................... DO you need company?..come n chat with meVery Happy on the net ofcourse.. let me know ..Email me..Idea[sharda] 2008-09-26 07:07:34

TURNING A NEW LEAF....................

Yes, it does sound like you have a rough time with loneliness. I feel for anyone who can't get out and about because they can't drive. There have been times in the past few years when even having a car and a driver's license didn't help me much because I was too depressed to go out, but eventually I overcame that and I was glad I did. It does help to be able to see things and people outside your home environment.

Does Red know how lonely you've been feeling? Maybe he could set aside a little more time to talk with you if he's at home working, even if it's only long enough to share a cup of coffee or tea.

The video of the band is very nice.. they sound great! I especially liked watching the female drummer. You don't see that many women playing drums, but there's no reason they shouldn't. My daughter tried to learn to play them, but dropped it after a while. It definitely takes practice. Red was over on the right of the video, wasn't he? He looked like he was having fun.

Anyway, it was good to hear from you. Take care and I hope you'll be able to find new ways of dealing with your sense of isolation.

[Crazymixedup]
2008-09-25 22:39:47

TURNING A NEW LEAF.................... I hope that you get your license. You will feel much better. Doing what you can do to get it will make you a much happier person. You won't feel so isolated if you can drive wherever and whenever you want to...Wink[SteeleBlack] 2008-09-25 21:05:42

TURNING A NEW LEAF.................... If you don't have to drive into the big city it may not be too hard..... [PaidTourist] 2008-09-25 17:35:34

JUST ANOTHER DAY (RED'S BAND)   Very cool Alice, very nice indeedWink[commonsensechristian] 2008-09-21 18:26:09

SUNRAY(Edited)............................... Thank you for mentioning me in this entry...thank you for the time that you have taken on my behalf. I am still thankful for that...I hate being at my home alone. I always get scared with strange noises that don't make sense. I hope that nothing is wrong with you. Wink[SteeleBlack] 2008-09-17 22:08:59

SUNRAY(Edited)...............................

((((((((((((((((((Alice)))))))))))) Thinking of you ...Missing you...sending MUCH LOVE your way! Let me hear from you soon and let me know how you are and what you're up to.

    Love you tons,

        Jewel

[Jeweliet]
2008-09-17 10:11:53

SUNRAY(Edited)...............................

It's so good to hear from you again, sweet Alice.  I always miss you when you're not here.  Love the beautiful photograph; how gifted you are!  Not only do you see beauty all around you, you're actually able to capture it for others to enjoy.  I was driving home from work last night and the sky was incredible.  I kept wishing I could truly capture it for others to see, but at 75 miles per hour on the freeway, it's difficult to take pictures!Mr. Green And they always seem a little blurred!Neutral

We have pesky raccoons that come up on our front porch and make the loudest racket and the biggest messes! They splash all around in the cats' water dish, leaving the water dirty and their little footprints all over the porch.  They knock over my tables, and terrify the cats.  They are pesky little critters.

Take care sweet friend.  You're welcome for the prayers.  Love, Gina

[Spirit Song]
2008-09-16 08:28:18

SUNRAY(Edited)...............................

  :)  its a long shot..and sure is hard..but we're trying.

[fromthisdayfwd]

2008-09-15 20:09:34

SUNRAY(Edited)...............................

lets see if this works today . i know yesterday 7 day b4,, we cudnt see the 'title of diaries ', and everyones comments..

I was just saying.,.. i hope your doing ok. & hugs to you..

xoxo

 also, i was wundring if you  knew this was christine .lol

xox

~me

[fromthisdayfwd]

2008-09-15 11:24:28

SUNRAY(Edited)...............................

((((((((((((((((((Alice)))))))))))) I'm sooooo happy to see an update from you!Smile I miss you terribly when you are away.

    I'm so glad that you went to the P-doc and that he is working with your meds!   If you continue to be tired from them after the initial period , be sure to call him- they may need adjusting again.

   I'm here and I love you madly!

    Please stay in contact!

   Much Love and Many Prayers,

             Jewel

[Jeweliet]
2008-09-15 09:39:37

SUNRAY(Edited)............................... [fromthisdayfwd] 2008-09-14 18:49:18

THREE.............................................

(((((Alice)))))  I'm thinking of you this morning, and praying for healing and for peace.  May God hold you in His loving hands.

Love, Gina

[Spirit Song]
2008-09-08 05:46:30

THREE............................................. ello mdd mommy,
i have been thinking alot about you these past few days. idk why. but something just told me to comment you. how are things? are you feeling well? i hope so. i've been keeping you in my prayers. God bless

xoxo[anglekisses123]
2008-09-06 20:04:27

THREE.............................................

(((((((((((9Alice))))))))))))))))0 How are you? Please let me hear from you soon..I miss you tons! And love you even more..Praying faithfully for you and red! 

   Love, Hugs and Prayers,

          Jewel 

[Jeweliet]
2008-09-06 14:09:19

THREE.............................................

 hope your weekend goes nice.. btw this is christine..not sure if you knew that .  I dont enter under the dissapointedwife anymore.

[fromthisdayfwd]
2008-09-05 20:21:42

SUMMER COLD...............................

 alice, please know youre in my prayers friend.. I pray what ever is troubling you, you get thru it with His guidence.. He is there everyday with His arms wrapped around you..we know we just have to ask for help, and to let go hun. God Bless. Youre in my prayers.

xo

~me

[fromthisdayfwd]

2008-09-04 15:20:44

SHUT DOWN?

My Dear Precious Alice,

  I'm so glad that you did not delete your diary!

  I NEVER want to lose contact with you...even the thought of it upsets me soooo very much! We are so very close, have shared so very much and have a deep understanding for each other..God has Blessed us with a heart to heart connection!

    I've been praying for you..wondering how you are TODAY?  Is your doctor working with your meds?  They need a tune up!

  Please let me here from you!

  I love you tons!,

        Jewel

[Jeweliet]
2008-09-03 07:42:18

SHUT DOWN? Maybe nobody would find you but we sure would miss you!  What's causing your pain?  I wish I could help you, but I will do what I can and pray for your pain to pass.[Saved by Grace] 2008-09-03 05:02:47

SHUT DOWN? What happened? I've been there too. And I know that it's tough. Just hang in there. This too shall pass...Wink[SteeleBlack] 2008-09-02 20:51:25

SHUT DOWN?   I'm not sure what is causing your pain Alice? I'm praying for you to find that help you need, whatever it is. Hang in there my friend......Michael[commonsensechristian] 2008-09-02 18:58:42

SHUT DOWN? I too long for a dark quiet place, hang in their sister alice , hang in there.[PaidTourist] 2008-09-02 16:32:54

SHUT DOWN? I wish to ask you what pain is?...If you have the right spirit...pain could be your moral support to do what has to be done.I am sure you follow what I want to say....HE went through PAIN with a cross on HIS back....and bore the brunt of the crucifix.....Are we not his true children to have that strength???God Bless You ....I am with you always for any support...though not there in person...I will pray that all your pain subsides...and subdues...Lots of Love from India !Very Happy Cheer up !!Laughing[sharda] 2008-09-02 12:06:27

SHUT DOWN? ((((((((((((((((((((((((((Alice))))))))))))))) I'm always here and I love you![Jeweliet] 2008-09-02 09:19:07

SHUT DOWN? are you ok?  what can i do to help?  text me. 435-232-6594.  if i can help then let me.  you sound like your in a bad way.  [wesalallen] 2008-09-01 23:24:16

SUMMER COLD............................... Hi Alice!  I've been fighting a sore throat for a while now.  Spirit Song has suggested to me that I take mega doses of vitamin C when I have a cold, to help me get over it quicker.  By mega doses, she means 1000 mg a day.  Maybe this might help you?[Saved by Grace] 2008-08-30 00:34:40

SUMMER COLD...............................

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[fromthisdayfwd]
2008-08-27 11:57:42

SUMMER COLD...............................

Sweet Alice, I'm so sorry to hear you're under the weather. Those summer colds are no fun; even worse than the winter ones I think.

I will definitely continuet to uphold you in prayer, my precious friend.  We all need each other right now, to be an encouragement and to uplift one another.  We may not can be with each other in person right now, but we can surely be with each other in spirit.  I look so forward to the day when we can all spend eternity together IN PERSON! How cool is that?

Meanwhile, He says for us to occupy until He comes.  So I'll occupy by praying for you and lifting you up.  I love cloud pictures, too!

[Spirit Song]
2008-08-20 06:00:22

SUMMER COLD............................... ello Mdd mum,
sorry to hear ya got a cold. i promise to keep you in pray like always. have fun with seeing your friends. my bestfriend is coming up in a few days to see me. i can't wait. lets see what kind of trouble we'll get into this time! lol. please also keep me in pray, a lots going on. thanx!
luv ya mdd mom
gracie[anglekisses123]
2008-08-17 14:07:45

SUMMER COLD...............................

Sorry to hear about the stress you're going through. It's a step in the right direction to get it out in the open.

I have a cold, too. Hope you'll feel better soon.

Clouds are amazing, don't you think? I'm always amazed at changes in the sky. Seems we've been on the same wavelength lately.

[Crazymixedup]
2008-08-15 23:34:12

HALF A MIND...............................

Lovely photo. I love the little pine cones with the light falling on them. I took one a few weeks ago that yours reminded me of, but mine was taken towards the light. I'll paste it in here for you.

Good luck with the life-changing decision about moving. Hard to operate with only half a mind, isn't it? I think I do it all the time.

[Crazymixedup]
2008-08-15 23:25:40

SUMMER COLD...............................

i thinl its weird how people think that you aren't supposed to get colds in the summer, yet expect to get them in the winter... it doesn't matter the season.

anyway, summer colds are the worst... who wants to be couped up all day?

get better soon

[frootloopedcheerio]
2008-08-14 15:02:31

SUMMER COLD...............................

(((((((((((((((((((Alice))))))))))))) You and Red are in my prayers each morning!

 I'm very glad to see an update from you- I have been concerned!

    I'm glad that you openned up some to your doctor...Are they working on your meds?

     Sending you MUCH LOVE!,

            Jewel

[Jeweliet]
2008-08-13 14:44:51

SUMMER COLD...............................

Thank you! Very Happy Hope your cold goes away soon. Jay and Brody have colds at the moment aswell and me and Jay have sore throats. I think Tyler may have had the sore throat too as he wouldn't eat the other day but he seems to be better now. Hope you, Joy and Anne have a nice time catching up. I hope whatever is making you and Red stressed gets sorted and you know I'm here if you need to talk ok? Love the picture. Take care, love n hugs xxxxxxxxxxxx

[SkAbUs SuNsHiNe 2]
2008-08-13 05:06:17

SUMMER COLD............................... hello friend![PaidTourist] 2008-08-12 19:11:53

DAILY READING.....................................   Alice, please be completely honest with your doctor...that's always the best way to be with everyoneWink. You have a great week, too. [commonsensechristian] 2008-08-12 12:26:23

DAILY READING..................................... ((((((((((((((((((Alice))))))))))))))) Am pressed for time but wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you, praying for you and sending you MUCH LOVE...Hope to hear from you soon![Jeweliet] 2008-08-12 12:05:25

DAILY READING..................................... You are such a Loving and pious Soul....God Bless you ((((hugs)))))[sharda] 2008-08-11 09:45:14

HALF A MIND...............................

Sweet Alice, I hope you are feeling better soon. I have missed you voice here, and your beautiful pictures.  I love this one, by the way.

I pray that God will give you and Red the wisdom you need to make decisions concerning your future.  I know that is a difficult thing to decide, and I know you want to stay close to your mom.  So I pray that God will reveal His will to you, and that He will go ahead of you and prepare the way.

Take care, precious friend, and know that you are much in my heart.  Love, Gina

[Spirit Song]
2008-08-10 21:26:13

HALF A MIND...............................

((((((((((((((((((((Alice)))))))))))))))) Welcome back!Mr. Green I missed you tons but always carry you in my heart!

  I was soooooo happy to get an email from you and to see an update! YAY to the Heavens.

  I sat down and wrote you a letter..I think that I am better able to express myself there...I am writing in Faith that God will provide me a way to mail it.

   I've recently advertised some used books for sell- hopefully I will sell some.

   I'm sorry that you went through this horrid bout of depression...Time for a med change or increase!

    I'm sorry that you are concerned about your mom's reaction to your possible move...I know that things will turn out as God intends!

    Congratulate Red for me.

   Know that I send you much Love and hope to hear from you soon!,

                        Jewel

[Jeweliet]
2008-08-07 14:05:07

HALF A MIND...............................   Sorry to hear you're not feeling well Alice, but getting better I hope? You sure do have much to think over, and the job must be a good opportunity--but make sure it's worth the cost of taking it. I know you and Red will do that.....but take your time making that decision.
  I love that passage, and the many others that express that same thought. One of my favorite prayers is for God to perform that search in me every day and let me know what He finds that needs attention in my spirit....and He does. I've learned not to pray that one until I mean itWink.
  Hope you have a nice weekend coming up, and feel much better for it. Take care nice lady, and it's always nice visiting. I'm always watching for exciting pics from your end of the world...........see ya, Michael.[commonsensechristian]
2008-08-07 10:16:46

SEE YA IN A WEEK..........................   Your pics make me want to jump into that lake, or grab my fishing rod.....probably the fishing rod would win that one.
  It was nice seeing you two again, and I'll miss you while you're gone. I see that a lot of my friends here miss time in the summer...which is a good thing since they're enjoying all the beautiful things it brings.
  Take care, and keep safe my friend. I'll see you soon, Michael.[commonsensechristian]
2008-07-29 12:44:04

SEE YA IN A WEEK..........................

What gorgeous pictures, Alice!  You have surpassed yourself with these!  And you and Red look great!  Thanks for sharing.

Love and hugs,

Minty.

[Trials n Temptations]
2008-07-21 12:40:24

SEE YA IN A WEEK..........................

Beautiful, beautiful pictures, sweet Alice. What a magnificent eye for beauty you have.  Such talent...

Hope you're having a wonderful time this week.  Chuck and I are leaving in the morning to spend a week away too.  See you when we get back.

Meanwhile, may God watch over and keep you and Red all the days of your lives.  Love, Gina

[Spirit Song]
2008-07-20 19:47:25

SEE YA IN A WEEK.......................... I loved these photos, Alice!  They are enough to make me jealous![Saved by Grace] 2008-07-19 02:57:19

SEE YA IN A WEEK..........................

beautiful pics as usual alice.. enjoy your time w. your honey :)..

yea Im jelous of love..oh well.ho-hum..

 I dont have face book, but have myspace , if you do. send me an email to  this user name @ yahoo..and   i can give you my reg email..and we'll go from there if you'de like. I know your one I can trust w. my myspace.xoxo.

gtg..but  stay happy. the pics are awsome.

(hugs )

`me

[dissapointedwife]

2008-07-18 22:59:28

SEE YA IN A WEEK.......................... ((((((((((((((Alice))))))))))) Thank YOU sooooooo much for the email! It was such a Blessing to hear from you!

Praying that your trip is filled with Love and Blessings!

I love you tons,
Jewel[Jeweliet]
2008-07-18 09:40:30

SEE YA IN A WEEK.......................... Beautiful photos! You have a great week, too.[Crazymixedup] 2008-07-17 22:10:51

NIGHTIME..........................................

I tried to find you on Facebook, but I couldn't. All I could find was someone who has a private profile and who has 4 friends in Seattle. If you want to find me, my name there is Kathy Lee and the e-mail I used there was kathylee983@yahoo.com.

Good luck to Red with his surgery. I'm sure you'll be able to give him lots of TLC. And pudding.

My daughter went canoeing this morning with some of her friends. I did it once, when I was a teen. I love the water. But maybe a little afraid of small boats, depending on how turbulent the water is. In a placid lake like in your picture, I think I'd be fine, as long as I didn't tip the boat over! It looks very peaceful there.

I didn't understand the poem completely, but it's still interesting.

[Crazymixedup]
2008-07-17 21:52:37

ANYTHING BUT PURPLE....................... P.S. -- The baby picture is adorable![Crazymixedup] 2008-07-17 21:14:03

ANYTHING BUT PURPLE....................... Thanks for remembering the picture and for including a mention to it in this entry! I'm looking forward to seeing what you do with it, and of course it's fine if you want to share it here. I hope you can learn how to do the backgrounds. In one of my photography clubs, someone was talking about having a Photoshop Elements class. That would be good for me. I don't have the program yet but I think it would be just about the right level for me. The full-blown Photoshop intimidates me somewhat.

Here's a link to the most recent pictures I've posted to my flickr account.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/kathylee/sets/72157606040239230

I haven't been taking many in the past couple of weeks, but my recent trip to Marietta (on the Northwest side of Atlanta) was fun and I took some there, as well as at the July 4th fireworks (but I forgot to take my tripod) and my daughter's birthday gathering. Anyway, it may be a while until I find the time to post some on MDD but you can see what I've been doing there.

You sound busy and I'm glad that as of this entry, anyway, you were starting to feel better. I still have to catch up with your next two entries. Enjoy the BBQ and good luck with the band party.. sounds like fun. Yes, I know what you mean about wanting to wash off the depression. I hope it worked! Take care, Kathy[Crazymixedup]
2008-07-17 21:04:25

SEE YA IN A WEEK.......................... hey "mom" lol
the pics are beautiful. you look like your having an amazing time there with red. have fun! and thank you for the comment. i hope the next guy i pick is a cupcake. that would be sweet! mmmmmmmmmm! lol
[anglekisses123]
2008-07-17 16:56:34

NIGHTIME..........................................

How I wish that I could believe like you. I USED to believe like you. I did. I tried accepting Christ, but it never worked for me. And I've come to understand that Christ IS the acceptable sacrifice. We are the ones that need to be accepted.

I honestly believe that nobody wants to go to hell. If it were as easy as accepting Christ, people would. Granted, there are people that don't believe in Christ, and they most certainly can't be saved. *sigh* I don't know anymore.

Mike says the bible says 'whosoever' who's to say differently? I'm starting to believe that differing beliefs in christ will be acceptable when we die; that if we believe in Christ that it's enough.

Still...who is Christ? That is so important for us to know. I just don't believe in a God that waits for us to love him. The Bible says that we love God because he loved us FIRST. It's in there, I promise. Wink

[SteeleBlack]
2008-07-16 22:40:06

NIGHTIME..........................................

I know He did it for His chosen ones. There are those who the demonic will sway against Him.  They will be lost.  It is a bitter loss for God. He doesn't want this, but He knows He can't force us to love Him. Love isn't love if its forced in any way.

The demonic wants to confuse His message. Contunually. He sent Jesus Our Savior, for all of mankind. But all of mankind, will not accept Jesus. Just look around....is everyone accepting Him. He died for their sins, but they would rather not accept saving grace. God knows Satan will convince many not to accept saving grace. Therefore, in the Bible He says only His chosen will be with Him in the end. Only those who have accepted saving grace. Those who understand the simple truth.

For some it is too simple. Satan tries to convince many that our badness cannot be solved with such simplicity. But we cannot solve it that way, but God is Almighty and He can do anything. With God anything is possible.

Take care.  God is a loving God. Much love, Alice

[RedsQueen]
2008-07-16 21:05:52

NIGHTIME..........................................

I wish that I believed that demonic forces threatened my soul. A friend of mine suggested that I could be possessed. I just don't believe in those things; this is after studying the greek text of the bible for several years.
I rememeber what I read. God doesn't promise to save everyone. He only promises to save the ones that Christ died for. IF Christ died for everyone, than NO ONE is going to hell and that just isn't true.

The problem that God has is WITH me and I don't believe that that is a demonic way of thinking. That IS the truth, as ugly as it is.

One thing has changed dramatically. I am not afraid or ashamed to tell what I know about God. If that is how God wants to use me, and then damn me to hell, so be it.

Search the scriptures to see if what I am saying is true. Do you have a concordance? As a serious christian, it's a good idea to have one. God is not what we think he is.  He's not what is taught these days. Yes, Christ paid the price for his children and he caused a truce between sinners and the father, BUT, he didn't do it for everyone. He did for the chosen the few; the sheep.

I'm sorry if this offends you. With my beliefs, there is no way out, though I absolutely adore your comments and your point of view. I like how we are sharing. Wink

[SteeleBlack]
2008-07-16 20:22:40

NIGHTIME.......................................... The music from my last entry is from a band called slipknot and the song is called vermillion pt 1. [SteeleBlack] 2008-07-16 20:18:54

NIGHTIME.......................................... The one thing about bacon- it's satifies sugar cravings and the feeling of wanting to snack. Eggs are just healthy any way you look at them. There is a rule...in the absence of carbohydrates the body will burn fat. Not muscle. Fat.

Lettuce is good to eat too. The real green kind; those are healthier than iceburg lettuce.

If you like meat, eat on that and only twenty carbs a day and the weight will come off.

I lost 40 lbs in about 6 months and like a dodo, I got off the diet and now I weigh twice my weight.

It's quite disgusting really. Wink

Thank you so much for readin my diary and commenting.

I hope that my diary answered for you why I feel so rejected from God. My last entry really describes what I did to get on God's bad side.

I believe that God is merciful. I believe that he answers prayers. I BELIEVE in all of those things. But does God turn his children into zombies? I doubt it. [SteeleBlack]
2008-07-16 19:41:12

NIGHTIME..........................................

Hi Alice! I know, I find it hard to believe aswell!!! I was looking at pictures of Tyler today when he was a newborn and thinking "how can he be one year old already!?" Just doesn't seem possible! Lol. I will give Tyler his birthday hug from you but it will have to be tomorrow as he's gone to bed now. He went to bed early tonight. I think all that splashing around in the bath wore him out! Haha I love chocolate aswell!!!! My brother left a chocolate bar in the fridge and it is so tempting for me to eat it!!!! But I won't lol. Wow you took that picture from your entry, that is amazing. I wish I could make pictures look as beautiful as you do. Yeah things are ok here thanks. Tyler crawled for the first time today!!!! Very Happy Strange really that he took his first steps like a month ago and only just crawled today but that's my boy, likes to be different! Lol. That's ok about not being online much. I'm just glad you're on the mend now and if you ever need to talk you know where I am ok? I used to have a facebook but I got bored of it and deleted it. Aww the pic is not showing up for me. And it sounded so beautiful as well. The more things change, the more things stay the same. I like that quote. It makes sense to me. Wow you wrote that poem 2 years before I was born!!!! That was actually one of the best poems I've ever written. I really liked it. It was sad though. Take care hun and remember I love you loads! xxxxxxxxxxxxx

[SkAbUs SuNsHiNe 2]
2008-07-16 17:34:03

NIGHTIME.......................................... Thanks for ure comments...........This was an interesting entry![sharda] 2008-07-16 14:48:04

NIGHTIME..........................................

Hi Alice...did you take the quiz?

Have a wonderful Holiday...

Sometime I will check out Facebook.

Have a wonderful day...

With love...M

[realdeal]
2008-07-16 09:49:59

NIGHTIME.......................................... I loved the picture, and the poem was sad.  I loved your comment in Paid's diary: "we all hate to be off our rockers!"  Very clever, my dear, very clever! Mr. Green[Saved by Grace] 2008-07-16 04:59:29

ANYTHING BUT PURPLE....................... Dear Sweet Alice,

Such a Beautiful and adorable baby...such a bundle of love and joy- Has me smiling to the Heavens!

Thank YOU soooooo much for your note...It's such a Blessing to hear from you dear sister! And yes, You are in my thoughts and prayers daily..several times a day when I suspect that you are dealing with this illness...and yes, I do know how it can be...I so wish that you didn't have to go through it. I missed you tons and am so happy that you are feeling better...so happy that you are back!

Thank You for sharing with me about the things that you ahave started in order to improve your life then had to stop due to this illness...Boy have i been there!

But I truly know that it was and is beyond our control...atlast we keep trying! And you are right, we must trust that God has a plan and a purpose for even this and that His will is perfect and unfolding. Thank YOU for the reminder.

It made me smile so big to know that you are feeling better..and to read about all of the wonderful plans with family and friends that you have...So glad that you will be able to do these things! So glad that God has lifted the depression just in time! YAY GOD!

I will be praying for you and Red as I do each morning.

So glad to have you back!:)

I love you tons,

Jewel

[Jeweliet]
2008-07-15 08:24:51

ANYTHING BUT PURPLE.......................

It's good to hear from you again Alice!  I look forward to the pictures.  The photo in the entry before this one is awesome!

[Saved by Grace]
2008-07-15 05:22:17

ANYTHING BUT PURPLE....................... I find the pictures on flikr or photobucket. [SteeleBlack] 2008-07-15 00:36:42

ANYTHING BUT PURPLE....................... Yes, I'm married, going on 19 years. And my son is 10 years old. Wink[SteeleBlack] 2008-07-15 00:34:31

ANYTHING BUT PURPLE....................... I really like the scripture. I remember a time when it felt like it applied to me. So much has gone down...I don't know if you're aware of this, but I studied the original text of the Bible for three years. I learned a lot that way.

Anyway...I couldn't stand my new view of God and I rebelled. Ever since than I've never been the same. I just can't get it back.

Thank you for stopping by my diary, despite the fact that you have been very busy.

[SteeleBlack]
2008-07-14 20:55:50

ANYTHING BUT PURPLE.......................

That baby is soooooooooooo cute!!

[Dreamscometrue]
2008-07-14 20:12:36

FOGGY DAYS..................................... RYC: we have had junior for over 12 years. he is just beginning to have some mobility issues, he has had inoperable cancer for a year now.[PaidTourist] 2008-07-14 19:14:37

FOGGY DAYS..................................... RYC: YES the chair has a "fridge" in the arm, and the other arm has a phone!  you can turn the fridge on and it holds a six pack.[PaidTourist] 2008-07-14 16:14:50

FOGGY DAYS.....................................

I am so sorry you suffer as you do, and I know how frustrating it can be when others don't understand your stuggles.  I have good patches and not-so-good patches, and lately, I have realised that, through enduring the bad patches, it's as though I have earned the good patches that follow.  I think all mental and autoimmune diseases have phases.  There is a definite ebb and flow with each of these.  The trick is to do all you can to prevent a bad patch, and that when it comes, do what you are doing now: take one sure step at a time until the pace becomes a little easier, and eventually, much more enjoyable.  I am praying you through this rough spell, and I pray that you will come out of it on the other side feeling stronger and better than ever.

I love you, dear sweet Alice,

Minty. 

[Trials n Temptations]
2008-07-14 10:34:54

FOGGY DAYS.....................................

My day was uneventful, though I hear a storm coming on; that's always good. Biological...I guess in the brain. I wish that I could see a neuroligist but my insurance won't pay for it.

Thank you for taking an interest in me. I really appreciate it. Wink

[SteeleBlack]
2008-07-12 20:08:33

FOGGY DAYS..................................... Thank you for answering my comment so soon...I have been dealing with not having feelings for about three or four years now. I am currently taking medication for being bi-polar, which I don't have the symptoms of that anymore. Me and my nurse practitioner have already eliminated the possibility that it could be my meds.

I think you touched a nerve when you said it could be biological. I don't think that my emotions are messed up and I don't believe that I'm numb. I've been numb for a great deal of my life and this isn't it.

I've talked to several people about it; been to the emergency room about it; been suicidal about it. Nobody knows how to fix me. It's hard for me to describe. There are no words in this world that could describe it.

I'm feeling better now.

I still think that your gift could help me in ways that maybe you aren't even aware of. Thank you for keeping me in your prayers. Thank you for listening and caring.

Maybe, if I am in your thoughts, maybe you will have a dream about me telling you what is wrong. I honestly believe that you have that kind of intuition. Maybe not. Maybe something will come to you while your praying for me.

Maybe you could read my diary to get a feel for me and the ways that I think and behave.

Thank you so much for sharing with me. I am very pleased that I have someone to talk to about this; somebody wise that can look at this from a spiritual point of view, unlike the world of psychiatrists. Wink

And I will try not to trouble you too much about this. I know that you have better things to do than concern yourself with me. And I thank you for the time that you have already spent.



[SteeleBlack]
2008-07-12 00:13:02

FOGGY DAYS.....................................

I think that it's amazing what you experience.

I'm so glad that you returned my comment. Maybe you can help me.

I am void of feelings. I can't feel joy, sadness, hatred, compassion, etc. You name it I can't feel it. Sympathy, etc.

What is wrong with me? Is my soul in some void or what?

I believe in different dimmensions and I think maybe that has something to do with it. Maybe my soul is residing in another dimmension.

I don't have contact with the outside world. It's like I'm going through the motions. And nobody knows how to help me.

Maybe someone like you could understand what it could be.

I am barely influenced by my outside surroundings. I don't feel anxiety and I never feel sexually stimulated.

This is just a few examples; to give you an idea of what I am speaking of.

I really believe that God has rejected me. I can't feel his love or his prescence. I can't feel the peace that used to come with having a relationship with him.

Anyway, thanks for reading.

What do you think?

[SteeleBlack]
2008-07-11 21:54:55

FOGGY DAYS.....................................

Mental illness is a tough thing and although I've never experienced 'voices' I too have wondered if they were real; like spirits. And some people have hallucinations and I wonder if those are real too.

Anyway, there's so much that we don't understand. We'll know better in the next life. Wink

[SteeleBlack]
2008-07-11 21:31:12

ARIAS DOES DINNER..................... Glad to her the landlord took care of the water.[bones14711] 2008-07-11 19:04:46

ARIAS DOES DINNER.....................

Dear Precious Sister,

  I was soooooo happy to get a note from you and so grateful to know that you know that I am always here...Just a letter, a phone call or an email away! 

   I knew that you were going through a challenging time...I prayed and sent you a letter...I didn't know what else to do other than wait! 

   You seem to be coming out of the depression, numbness and fog! I give thanks to God for that.

   It is so wonderful that you managed to keep up with the thing that you felt that you HAD to do..I know that took all of your energy!

   I know exactly what you mean about putting on a smile..I do that too...No matter what I am going through inside..an outsider could not tell...not even Wayne!  I have learned how to keep it to myself and how to carry on - to push through the wall...I believe this ability is God's Gift to us. 

     I am always here, Alice...My love for you will NEVER sway! 

    Keep me posted on how you are!

     I love you tons!,

           Jewel

   

[Jeweliet]
2008-07-11 08:19:06

ARIAS DOES DINNER.....................

((((((((((((((((SisterAlice))))))))) It was soooo very good to see an update from you...such a Blessing to get a note on how you are doing! I've been very concerned and praying hard...Wish that you would have let me be there to help you through- your trying times!  You've certainly been there for me!

   All that I knew to do was write and pray-so I did both!

   Glad to read that you had so many things to look forward to!Smile

 I've missed you TONS!!!!!

    I have to close for now- my back is hurting and sitting here is making it worse...Will email you soon Dear One!

   I love you tons,

        Jewel

[Jeweliet]
2008-07-07 13:23:37

ARIAS DOES DINNER..................... missed ya sweetie!  I wish I was coming to visit you for a week![PaidTourist] 2008-07-06 16:50:50

ARIAS DOES DINNER.....................

I've been missing you......glad to know that you're ok.

I commute about 40 minutes to work each morning, then home again every evening.  The gas prices here are ridiculous too.  I'll soon be working four 10 days instead of five 8 hour days. That will help a lot with gas expenses.

Take care, and know that you are thought of with love.  Gina

[Spirit Song]
2008-07-06 15:46:25

ARIAS DOES DINNER..................... Hey Alice!  It's great to hear from you!  I've been missing you being around, and been wondering what you've been up to!  Petrol prices are skyrocketing here too - it costs me twice as much to fill up my fuel tank as it used to.[Saved by Grace] 2008-07-06 06:57:30

ARIAS DOES DINNER..................... Cool read - thanks for sharing with us - are you driving from the US to Montreal? Just curious here...[The Dreamspinner] 2008-07-06 02:02:25

BLUE..............................................

(((((((((((((((((((Alice)))))))))))))) Thank YOU soooooo much for the note...I've been concerned about you and praying hard! Know that I am always here if you ever need to talk!

   Looking forward to your update!Smile

   MUCH LOVE ALWAYS,

            Jewel

[Jeweliet]
2008-06-30 09:09:52

BLUE..............................................

Beautiful picture, Alice. Absolutely beautiful. Reminds me of a Joni Mitchell album from the 70's entitled "Blue."

I love storms but I don't like the ones with funnel clouds.Shocked We don't have a basement, so if it's really severe Summer and I get in the little space underneath the staircase! Not sure how much protection it really is, but it makes me feel safer.

Here's one of those progressive insurance commercials I love; it's not my favorite but it has the check-out girl in it that makes me think of you. They should let you do that role; you'd be perfect!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WkzVVYJggi4

[Spirit Song]
2008-06-21 15:55:59

BLUE.............................................. yipes... might want to fix the windows. the pic is loverly as usual[frootloopedcheerio] 2008-06-20 12:47:59

BLUE..............................................

Hey hun! I know, Tyler is so big now!! He's taller than the little girl who lives 2 houses away from me even though she's 7 months older than him!!!! I know, it will be so weird when Tyler's older and taller than me!! Lol! Yeah I am feeling less stressed and depressed now thanks. I think it was just my hormones. Well can't think of anything else it could be anyway. I don't get why my hormones would suddenly go all weird though but they seem to be settling down again now. Thanks for the advice! My bigger picture is my Tyler. Hehe. I get paranoid sometimes too. It's horrible. Sorry it gets lonely sometimes but yep you can say hi to me whenever! HI! Lol!! I dunno if the policeman was trying to catch me out or if he really was that stupid. He did seem kind of stupid. Lol. Wowm that flower picture is gorgeous. Did you take it? Best of luck with the lumber puncture and everything. That's good it's slow moving if it is MS. Hope the weather gets nicer! Take care, love you lots! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[SkAbUs SuNsHiNe 2]
2008-06-19 16:38:01

BLUE..............................................

Experience has tought you and so it does to so many.We are just seasoned diary writers who try and help others to lead better and esier lives.

But aren't we all human after all ? Every child is told not to run without being careful....but  nearly all don't listen, run and fall ! hurting themselves....but you can't stop telling them not to run ...you gotta do what you gotta do !!Very Happy

[sharda]
2008-06-19 09:10:33

BLUE.............................................. as always im praying for you to mom. thats to bad that you have to have MS. i keep hoping for the best for you. well take care and it was nice hearing from you.[anglekisses123] 2008-06-18 17:31:58

BLUE..............................................

sweet alice.. xoxo

 im behind w. much , and peek when i can dear..

 lovely pics as usual..

 (HUGS ) to you .. i have 2 cousins w. MS, and  we all were chkd out, because we have no idea where it came from. My cousins dad ( my dads brother ) left them when they were very young, so they cudnt do tests on him,  and my dad was chd & nothing.. we just dont know how some of these things start.. you know  our faith is important  for us to have   forever. We believe & all is possible.. why we have to go thru these struggles, sometimes ? IDK..I wundr about that , esp when we 'do have the faith ;..

 I hope reds trip  goes super fast  & maybe  he'll behome  early for you  :)

 your mentioning the bathroom window agian.yes have himchk that  out.  Its  a hazard, and  no way should you have to worry about that , your safety in the home.

gtg  for now..

and ..

Knock , Knock I knocked at heaven's door this morning. God  asked me...'My child, what can I do for you?' And I said, 'Father, please  protect and bless the person reading this message.' God smiled and  answered...'Request granted'. Send this to seven people and  the one who sent it to you. By doing this, you have succeeded in praying for eight people today. 'Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.'

[dissapointedwife]

2008-06-18 10:40:37

BLUE.............................................. That's cool.. I think our comments crossed, mid-air! Thanks. [Crazymixedup] 2008-06-17 19:14:37

BLUE..............................................

Lovely picture.. it looks like you're coming along with your photoshop lessons!

I hope Red will come home early for you. Yes, it's nerve-wracking to deal with emergencies when you're alone. And then there's just the loneliness factor. At least you have the dogs for company, even if they're not too cooperative about the basement!

Last year, I found a cute little flashlight that goes on my keychain. It's small and flat and easy to find in the dark. You push and hold down a flat button on one side to turn it on. It has a bright light, too. I use it all the time and it's still working fine. They sell them at the local supermarket and they're not very expensive ($3 each) so I bought a bunch of them for stocking stuffers last Christmas. Maybe you can find one like that. They're very handy and you always know where it is.

[Crazymixedup]
2008-06-17 19:03:22

BLUE..............................................

Hello sweet Alice....beautiful picture.  We have had much severe weather too crazy.  Hope Red comes home soon and I pray all is well with you.

Love you...m

[realdeal]
2008-06-17 14:18:34

IT'S A FAMILY AFFAIR........................... the pics with the fire in it are amazing! you must have a really nice camera[frootloopedcheerio] 2008-06-17 12:51:53

FORTY EIGHT YEARS OLD....................... hey doll, where are you?[PaidTourist] 2008-06-16 18:13:45

FORTY EIGHT YEARS OLD.......................

 sorry I missed it.. happy b'day alice.

xoxo

~me

[dissapointedwife]

2008-06-15 00:22:34

FORTY EIGHT YEARS OLD....................... ello mdd mom. iv miss u. nice 2 hear that ur happy & that t have new clothes. how have u been felling lately?
love,
me[anglekisses123]
2008-06-12 20:05:52

FORTY EIGHT YEARS OLD....................... Its so strange that everytime I come in here whatever that week whatever difficulties your verse always matches up with what i'm going through.  THANKYOU for giving me a little peace.  I am tryin to practice silence and self control.  God Bless Love B[subtlechicka] 2008-06-11 05:15:08

FORTY EIGHT YEARS OLD.......................

I have to tell you this: there is a TV commercial here for Progressive Insurance. It's really kind of stupid, but it's supposed to be. Anyway, the girl in all the commercials looks so much like you, and whenever I see those stupid commercials I always smile because they make me think of you.  (Not that you're stupid..... it's the commercials. Actually they're not stupid they're just funny.Mr. Green)  So I said all that to say this, sweet Alice.  You always make me smile.  Whether in real life or a TV look-alike.

Rock on.

[Spirit Song]
2008-06-09 18:51:06

FORTY EIGHT YEARS OLD.......................

Hi Jaime! That's ok about not being able to get online. Thanks so much for being here *hugs you* You're welcome! I'm so glad my comment made your day!! I'll definitely give Tyler a big hug from you when he gets up in the morning. He went to bed about half an hour ago. Thanks soooo much for being here for me when I'm ready to talk about stuff. That means so much to me *hugs you tight* If there's ever anything you wanna talk to me about, anything you wanna let out then I'm here for you too ok? And you can email me if you don't wanna say stuff in a comment. Thanks for saying I'm brave *hugs you* I love the way you spelt frenz! Hope you had a lovely birthday!!! Have fun at those parties! Your outfit sounds so pretty! Good luck with getting your liscence!!! My brother, Nick is gonna learnt to drive too! Well he's learning now but he won't be allowed to actually try for his liscence till next year when he's 18. What's the legal age for driving in Canada? Just wondering coz here it's 18 and I know in America it's 16. Aww thanx so much for the mention! You are just so sweet! That's made me so happy now!!!! Very Happy Aww! You mean so much to me!!! I love you lots!!!!!! Love n huggles, Nessie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx *mwah!*

[SkAbUs SuNsHiNe 2]
2008-06-08 16:12:52

FORTY EIGHT YEARS OLD....................... Very Happy Many Happy Returns of the Day and Many more to come.......God Bless you and your Family!!!Smile[sharda] 2008-06-08 01:55:27

FORTY EIGHT YEARS OLD.......................

I think I'm safe from your driving down here in Australia!  That outfit that you got sounds really nice.  One of my favourite colours is mauve, and you should look really swish with that white top under it.  Have fun!

[Saved by Grace]
2008-06-07 22:24:20

FORTY EIGHT YEARS OLD.......................

Didn't anyone tell you about the sock monster that lives under your washer/dryer? He's greyish blue and very fuzzy and LOVES to eat socks, the dirtier the better.. the little sockettes being his favorite snack because the flavor is concentrated and oh so good!

I'm not worried about you getting your license. You do live in Canada, don't you?

Your new outfit sounds nice. Happy Birthday!

[Crazymixedup]
2008-06-07 12:14:13

FORTY EIGHT YEARS OLD.......................

Dear Precious Alice,

  HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!Smile YAY for getting stamps..I bought another book as well as we are financially strapped- I am in the hole with the bank through an error I made...We have no income at present..Though Wayne might be returning to work next week- I pray so! I've handed my financial burdens to God!  Please pray over our finances and I will do the same!

    It was soooooo good to hear from you...I prayed that I would hear from you soon- this morning as I have missed you sooooo very much!  I've also been praying for your recovery and Reds faith. And I prayed that you would have a good visit with your mom! 

   I've had some setbacks with my drinking...feel that things are getting worse instead of better. Neutral I fight so hard Alice, that I wear myself out and give in.  Saturdays are always hard for me...I'm hoping that I won't spend what little money I have that could be better spent on a bill that I have...But who knows. Neutral

     I look soooo forward to hearing from you again.

  Thanks for sharing with me about your visit with your mom..that made me smile so big!

  I thank it's GREAT that you are studying for your license! Go YOU! That's something I plan to do in the future..But am concerned at present that doing so now could hurt my chances at getting my disability. 

    Well, I love you tons!,

           Jewel 

   

[Jeweliet]
2008-06-07 12:08:55

IT'S A FAMILY AFFAIR...........................

Great photos! You do portraits very well.. are they mostly candid shots or do you just make them look that way? And the baby is beautiful, no doubt about it!

I hope your energy will pick up soon. I've been dragging for over a week because of a virus or flu bug my body has been fighting so I know how it feels. Hang in there!

[Crazymixedup]
2008-06-07 12:08:08

FORTY EIGHT YEARS OLD.......................

  Happy Birthday YOUNG Lady!Wink 

It's about time you got going on your driver's license.......and you're up there where there's not much to run into except for the trees; right? Hee Hee Hee. Sorry, I couldn't help myself.
  Too bad about your socks. Mine disappear, too; but I knew who the culprit was for mine. I hope yours come back home to you.

  I'll see you later my friend, and you have a great weekend! Michael

[commonsensechristian]
2008-06-07 08:48:00

WHOOPTY-TUESDAY...................................

hey there alice.. loved all the pics..

looks , sounds like you all had fun :)

sorry to hear about the crashing of window .. wow.. thnx God you were around that , whenit happened.. talk about freeky.

 with love, your sister in the Lord.. christine..

ps...sorry i havnt been on to comment much , trying my best to 'keep up todate '.. but im so behind w. many..

 did I read your on yahoo sometimes ?

[dissapointedwife]
2008-06-03 22:47:39

IT'S A FAMILY AFFAIR........................... hello friend.[PaidTourist] 2008-06-03 18:04:59

IT'S A FAMILY AFFAIR........................... Nah...I wish that was my picture. She's my thinsperation. I would like to look like her body. [SteeleBlack] 2008-05-31 16:53:16

IT'S A FAMILY AFFAIR........................... Dear Sweet Alice,

I'm sorry that I wasn't online last night to talk to you!

I'm soooo proud of you for drinking tea in between and trying to do damage control. Go YOU! That IS Progress!

I mailed you a letter yesterday and started you another last night! So you will be hearing ALOT from me...I hope that you don't mind...I just love you so very much and appreciate you more than words can express!

I've been praying faithfully each morning for your healing and deliverance from this illness! I've been praying that your visit with your mom is FILLED with BLESSINGS! I've been praying over Red's Faith!

I wanted to use soooooo bad last night! But made it through sober...Today is day six- and Saturday- a high risk day for me.

Let me hear from you when time allows and let me know how you